a relationship with life ⧞ what time has taught me
Habits / Order of Operations
Lead with your dreams. 51% rule + compounding. Don’t wait for the end of the day to set your direction!
Unity reverses entropy. When pulled apart, listen for the sound of now, feel for the pulse of now, think about the presence of now, and resync your centers. “Be hear now.”
Remember what happened when you released things too early, and the LENGTHY Burnout that that caused. Don't rush incubation, don’t dissect the cocoon. Don't succumb to the pressure to release and be productive. Fruit takes a season. Think of your tiny Adenia that took two years to leaf... think Of Nezha. let it be.
We must enter the stream first before we can ride it. This dimension requires entrances and adjustments, transition states between inertia and velocity (acceleration). Create a relationship with this feeling, so it becomes second nature to want to jump in, knowing how good universal energy feels when it's at our backs!
Create stability through counterbalances.
Lead with action, and allow feelings to flow in, rather than the other way around.
Move forward positively and the negative will cease. Chaos is a womb for order. Time x direction x energy x rhythm.
Always do your weekly reviews!
Structure more things so that you activate yourself, and also take the weight off of having to remember everything in the moment. There isn't much truth in the moment, as an emotional being.
Complete the gesture, and pace yourself for continual transition, so you can see your own steps, and build on what you know.
Lead with your imagination. Do not resist habits, simply let them be washed away by the power of your flow.
Wei Wu Wei
Learning / Information Intake
Do not pivot quickly between subject matters (reading one article here, another there, etc.). The information will bounce off. Instead, collect materials around a topic and schedule time to dive into that subject when all material is gathered. Or, make it a theme for a month. That way, you will COMPOUND the knowledge acquisition while reducing the overall energy output.
Ask better and better questions. Good questions are those you don't already know the answer to! They will generate your deepest listening and learning capacity, which is also the curiosity that fires up your presence in the moment.
Any domain of learning can be laterally applied to anything else.
Harmony / Balance
You only feel time pressure outside of yourself, in distraction (on the edge of the wheel or spokes). You don't feel time in the center.
Pace yourself. The shortcut / speed is Ahrimanic. If you find yourself tense, rushing through things, relax and lean back in immediately to a sustainable pace!
Only take in information that's relevant to your ongoing action, or strategically use information to drive an action. Do not binge on information without taking action. You know this feeling as tension, urgency, fomo.
Dynamism and resourcefulness—the answer lies where these meet.
Stay in the center of the spiral, and keep clean to be light. If you leave that zero-point of inner and outer balance, then the distances you will travel, and the effort you will exert, increase exponentially. As soon as possible, return to center, and stay aware of every moment there—because the center of the storm must hold the spin in, and the spin out, with no extra drag of its own. That is its nature, and its profound beauty. This center is the gateway to everything, and where true sight and centrifugal clearing are natural processes.
👁 help me to see the truth 👂 help me to hear the truth 👄 help me to speak the truth ✋ help me to feel the truth [stomach] help me to let go
Preparation / Center-Point
Show people where to contribute. Align with their abilities, and don't push them (root center) to do more than what they bargained for. Outline very clearly what is necessary so people can fill in. Then you can stitch it all together.
Scan the environment for leaks. It will make centering so much easier, once you recognize that your aura expands far outside your body, and you are therefore responsible for what is around you as well (being responsible means you also have choice on what stays, and what goes).
You are a rainbow bridge, which means you hold open a portal by the structural integrity and geometric reliability of your inner architecture. While you can bear much weight, do not wait to test your tensile strength, for that is when you will be distracted: instead, maintain constant upkeep so that all who pass through, experience you AS the portal, otherwise they won't even see the bridge (and you do not feel them, since you are as open as space itself). You are the boundaries and the alchemy, and it is of the utmost importance that you maintain integrity at your perimeter, and know that all who pass through ARE Changed. This is not about brick-wall-boundaries, this is about threshholds and alchemy. You are not resisting, you are simply demanding transformation.
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creativityis like skipping stones — line it up in balance so that one gust of energy carries it over the whole surface, seemingly unendingly.
Do not skip things out of impatience. Those are helping hands and signposts you ignore, at your own peril. Nothing is ever the same, or assumable out of pattern. You will always lose more than just the time you gain, when you rush.
When you enter into the internet / social media/ etc., treat it like you’re going into BATTLE - be VERY astute, VERY AWARE, and only do so when you’re 100% focused on the task at hand. Do not let yourself be distracted !
Estimate and predict distractions and emotional triggers, so that when you encounter them (inevitably) you are prepared with correct defense and action. ←this relates especially to starting out the week with a game plan, and seeing how you follow through on that. It was very effective for the week of Jan 18, in terms of having some deliverables and the satisfaction of that.
We must organize our memories and ideas for self-activation, otherwise we will grow tense with resistance. We must always be in movement to remain Clear and so others can feel that it is a clear and fluid space, not a clear and dead space.
This lifetime is not about holding emptiness—it is about managing a constant in- and out-flow of objects, inspirations, people, and then sampling from all of the above. To guard against that would be denying the dance. Stay aware of the undertow, and know what to process, and when to let go. ←relates to rainbow bridge !
You are the destination. You don't have to go anywhere, because all comes through you. Why chase portals when you are the portal? There is no latency anymore when you realize that. None whatsoever. That said, do not fall into dullness. You are a rainbow, you are always at an angle of sun and rain, the transmutation point. Stay light, and definitive, and in movement, for your energy only comes in movement, not in staidness. It can be hard to realize that, but use your mortal mind to remember, push in all directions to rebalance the bridge, go into horse position, whatever it takes, and in balance, your destination is exactly where you are, creating.
Remove the loud things to hear the quiet things. Simple as that.
There is no choice; there is only distraction.
Time is not for you to wait; Time is for you to create / It's not the time for you to wait, it's time to show what you create
Precision / Economic Energy
Expand where others contract. Contract where others expand. Surprise the universe by being conscious, syncopated: ride the moiré dragon.
See refinement through. Perfectionism is shadowy for as long as it's wrapped up in fear of rejection, and control. This is higher than that. This is about the natural process of birth. We need time to incubate. How that looks, in this external world, is to carefully bring in different nutrients, and formative principles, in a certain order, to refine something that carries the blueprint of life. At this stage of creation, it is not about excess and overwhelming. It is about the clearest channels, that can handle as much "excess" as necessary but ultimately are so strong in their own that they will outlast any trend, and glow below all patinas. Sterling silver vs silver plate.
Refinement is also being able to overcome perfectionism by executing with the tools available. Everything out there is an externalization of an internal process, something that we know already inside of us. So do not ever put something aside to perfect the tool first. Start with the making, and then refine the tools. The essence will always shine through.
Momentum shows no preference for the size of an action: even the smallest ripple moves dead water.
Don't make it harder than it has to be.
Only start an action when you know you will see it all the way through.
The fantasy of a lossless interruption does not translate to this reality: re-suturing and healing take time, which means much energy, compounded by time, has been lost in the breakage. Do not succumb to this fantasy, and definitely do not make self-interruption chronic! This also relates to the depth of a still meditation vs. fidgeting.
slow down time, go deep into attention. Time slows down when all attensions work in unison. The difference between attentions is lost time. Time slows down in awareness. Avoid things that speed up time at all cost, such as alcohol, drugs, coffee, stimulants, etc. (the higher the vibration, the slower the time).
Creation / Inspiration
Remember what it felt like when you spent years seeking value in others (NYC resale business); you were able to maintain a flow of current but it didn't build up as an investment, in something reliable other than your keen sight. You were acting out as a projector. The manifestor way, is making the blueprint of your vision and your ask, and then filling in those spots with the best of the best talents, and paying them for their work, without expecting them to meet you as a manifestor/visionary. This is taking in the best of your natural ability to see value and skill where it is, and also the CLARITY that you offer to prescribe and perimeter exactly what is to be done, so it can be done without friction, and then as a manifestor to CREATE the gravitational pull as opposed to wait for it to come around (this isn't about seeking, it's about establishing, blueprinting, that's the big difference). It makes sense why sewing is so nice for you—attaching things, folding them into orders, without having to weave the actual material.
Opportunity is perishable. Act on openings and alignments immediately. Remember how it feels to not jump through a portal, when it comes up. Be ready, always, matched with gratitude and a bit of fire!
Baptism by water. The hermit is the key to Prudence, which means, be water (drink enough water too!!) and flow far past points of stuckness, which happen when you're dry, and detail oriented, and self-exterminating.
Seeds over mimicry
Make first, then reference other peoples' workflows.
Iterate at least three times! As wastelessly as possible (that means, digital is good for this.) Know that this is your creative process, and give it spaaaaace.
Always attribute. If you resist this, look closely at the underlying fears driving competitive and secretive behaviors.
People forget but the universe doesn’t. That’s why people who just steal from history and reframe it can convince people, but the universe sees they’re useless / not using their gifts for real discovery, and therefore they won’t get any source energy. Deception is their game, but they are just deceiving themselves.
Endlessly generating ideas without action is mental masturbation.
Action your palette, load it up with whatever you need, and in this case, the fractal possibility of artists on your palette. My palette consists of artists.
Show up to creation as clean and clear as possible. If channels are blocked, then rinse them with dance, automatic drawing, automatic speaking, song. Then re-center.
Archetype of a full spectrum scanner, the prismatic gaze which turns sight in on itself and unifies the infinity mirror
Sufjan stevens. You have the body, the mind, the voice, the touch, to express. That is your role here on earth. Be expression. Grow that bandwidth. Let it carry you too.
limited palette! build with what you have.
Vision / Perspective
Notice that working for a vision, with a platform, is inspiring. Tune into the platform of God's eyes. Tune into Gaia as your patron and commissioner.
See through distortion. Life purpose, completely.
I am a STARTER and a FINISHER. Funnily enough I've lived my life opposite to this, being conditioned to 1) delay delay delay.... then 2) build build build and never having the energy to finish... But when I allow myself to be brought to the door, and then reveal that I am the key, everyone wins. But if I try to carry the people to the door, and then break myself in the process, there is no going through, and it's all for moot. Can I explain that to people? Do I need to? I must remember to always BE the change, be the finisher, ask for help to get there, have faith and confidence in my abilities at the finish line. Remember giving that presentation for the Fashion Ten - how I can step up to the plate where other people can't. The videos for Newlife. I have that ability in me.
Zoom in, zoom out, without breaking action. Multitasking is possible between the higher self and the 'little p' personality. Practice the dance.
The most direct path may look indirect. Don't trust your ego on this one. Feel into where you need to go next. All senses on board! Balance yourself through consistent and thorough observation. Control is always ego-driven. Rise above that, and see clearly.
Follow the light source instead of chasing the projection.
We are timeless principles in seed forms.
Contemplate and commit to a calling for life, something you would die for. For in that contrast, life is lived fully.
Endurance / Consistency / Rhythm
Instead of stopping (or starting) something mentally (or from an ideological place), observe while doing or not doing, and allow the observation to change the behavior naturally. Otherwise it is just a bandaid.
Like a virus, any bad habits / things you want to clear out your life must be devoid of ALL possibilities of transmission and nutrition. Otherwise they will just grow back. So cut them out, completely, for an extended period of time—this is worth the effort more than anything else.
Patterning takes time. Both for you creating, and for your creations.
Rhythm brings all things to the surface over time i.e. pace yourself piece-by-piece for deepening peace.
Transitions: bring people and yourself along for the ride. At a pace that promotes health, not division.
Make two if it's just as easy as making one... bring yourself through the journey at each step multiple times to really remember and learn, and also to have more to share later on. #onlearning
Never break for others.
Drive / Direction
Impatience with actions, patience with results.
Sacrifice dreams as well as habits (and allow some habits if they don't interfere).
Habitual (automatic or compulsive or unconscious) action erodes willpower.
De-Conditioning for myself and others
Re-enchantment of learning from experience, and experiencing the world and each other. See the world anew again; re-learn everything, from a participatory standpoint. I am learning about myself, when I observe anything clearly. I am also in resonance with anything that moves me.
Bringing in the new—inform, and hold my ground!
it's not about silencing the mind, it's about not getting into creative / expression debt. following through in a sustainable way with all the ideas that come up, and seeing how they all fit together. Continue to process. Richness, not emptiness.
Instead of getting stuck in a mindset of "it's too late" or "if I had just gotten interested in that 10 years ago when it was still nascent..." (like, studying robotics in university or whatever), remember that at each age a birth is happening, and it's possible to join that beginning now. Same with the body. Cling onto the present, not the past, because the energy of being late is a broken paradigm / a trap.
(2020-12-21) Response to the above: today I felt overjoyed that I was returning to a path that I began years ago. It was only surprising in retrospect, the freshness of feeling happy to be home again, rather than thinking on all the "lost time" away. THIS signals a transformation. The reaction & interpretation are different now.
Law of Distraction =/ Law of Attraction
Cognition / Mindset
Accountability is more important than success.
jump into action before the mind has time to decide for you, and then watch as all mental energy gets wrapped up in the thing at hand. That’s the beauty of the mind, it is a loving intimate creature that doesn’t really show preferences!
the mind is a wonderful analytical tool that will BECOME interested in whatever is presented in front. So that presentation has to be initiated by an action that precedes thoughts, so faster than thoughts.
Most people think their purpose is to DO (something). Life purpose is about BECOMING. Without BEING first, no amount of action can fulfil you. When you ARE, you act from fulfilment and naturally create abundance.
Notice what's different, not what's the same. But don't grow attached to what will always change.
It's all an illusion. The only thing is experience.
Any domain of learning can be laterally applied to anything else.
Leadership / Power
I jump through the portal, I do not wait for others because they're waiting for me. By my own confidence I must go, and open the space for more. DO NOT WAIT FOR THE INVITATION.
You are a finisher. That means, put all your energy into carrying it the last mile, after 90% of generator work (with your advice along the way, so the direction is right... otherwise it's even more effort, which takes energy you definitely don't have!). Invert the paradigm around you doing 90% and not finishing anything... do 10%, and finish ALWAYS.
There are no heroes, there are only heroic actions. We are only one action away from leading the world in a new direction.
High self-esteem is the result of having good standing within yourself. Having a high reputation with yourself.
See moments of extreme compulsion as opportunities for overcoming and strength training. Get excited, adrenaline pumped, when you feel a strong urge to do something compulsive, addictive, etc., and know that you are being shown this moment to OVERCOME, as opposed to surrender. Strengthen your resolve here, and prepare to jump the abyss! This is Daath.
If I am not wealthy through the filter of money, then what filter can I look through RIGHT NOW that positions me as wealthy, or reflects wealth back to me? It is from that place that all other areas can be brought up to such a level. A definition of wealth, is the capacity to give and to move: so what can we give, infinitely, which would make us the enactors of great deeds of charity from wells of wealth?
Wealth is current and capacity. What resources are mine to move? Even if bank accounts are low, if I can direct resources towards or away from things, then I am in the resonance of wealth. I am here to become a wealth expert. To be responsible and generous. To make dreams come true, by providing resources to the right people, and supporting those projects also with the right mentors. It is also time to let go of scarcity-as-pressure. We know that feeling. It is not good to be blocked from doing things. Before, that was necessary, it was part of my story, to not have options so I could focus on what really mattered. Now I know. Now I'm ready to upgrade my options and access.
If there's another skill that gets you more money, then learn that skill. Increase income per hour until you can move into a stream that is exponentially greater than where you started. Compound interest on SKILLS.
Every dollar invested in me compounds your returns. Without saying anything, it is clear that I am a responsible and clear catalyst of value. That I take in money to direct it into further value streams, that I oversee, and that in turn benefits everyone. Because the value I create is infinite, it is connected to source. There are no leaks.
I want to be seen as such a good investment, people just want to give me every dollar they have (I do not accept money if you go into debt to give it though!) knowing that the return will be huge. I want to be that powerful of a wealth magnet.
To any one person, I offer more value than what I ask. Then, when millions of people are able to access what I have to offer, then I see the abundance flow in, for my service. This is an interesting proportion to think about... For any one person, they receive endless value for a small investment. More access, more service, = more abundance that flows back!
Also wealth of content - building these integrated archives (narratives) that can then populate future documents, projects, generating an automatic link back to the source/the throughline, and having content always ready for publishing as opposed to being deadline-driven. So it's like, when the WORLD is ready, then I release, but I have it all in writing already to let out. Niiiiice. this is wealth. Readiness, and richness, and depth.
Where others don't see value... nature says those things overlooked that grow, will become the greatest source of value in the future. So be early, but not too early, just before the wave hits!
Value what no one else values... the source of abundance, is to bring abundance, by being abundance. To shift value into things you already have. And those things you have, are infinite. Instead of shifting value to things that you don't have, which will take your power away from you... shift your desire to what you already have.
Market-MAKE. Know your budget, and know the value of what you want. don't wait for someone else to create the price for you! The only missed opportunity is not going after what you want. Remember, when you knew Bitcoin was cheap, but you were still waiting for it to get just a little bit cheaper.... that's when you lose out. Pay what you know it's worth to you, and then just be happy with what you got. Don't always be waiting or searching for deals, because that's actually not coming from a place of honesty with yourself, or trust in yourself.
Documentation / Self-Awareness
Document this journey, and organize the documentation.
The shadow of resourcefulness is hunger. You are what and how you digest.
Compare yourself to who you were yesterday, not to who someone else is today.
Maintain a persistent vision[, from the standpoint of] incremental (radical) change begun yesterday, not an overnight revolution starting tomorrow. -Maja Göpel
Who am I = how do I create?
Relationships & Service
I know that the people around me reflect who & where I am. I also know that I have a loving and supportive network that is waiting for me to come on-line—I hold the key to the circuitry. When I come online, my entire network does. Do not run from this because of the responsibility. Lean into it.
You are here to activate, not to placate.
We each hold keys to unlock one another. That's why we're all here!
If this isn't a lifetime relationship, then don't invest your day into it.
Decisively move away or apart if alignment is not there. Respect peoples' time by not hanging on, and vice versa.
Communication / Negotiation
Inform, inform, inform.
Respect people's time and attention, just as you would like others to respect yours. That means, compile all communications to send out at a single point, on a regular basis. Do not just spam whenever something comes to you. End of day reports.
Transparency helps people understand they're not as far away as they think. 1-degree of separation. I can lead an entire GENERATION out of feeling indentured! Just by turning the tides myself.
Possibly the only choice is to make agreements that you can keep. Happiness / a life free of chronic resistance comes from this...
Negotiation is won by whoever cares less. If you care more, then turn from short term game into long term game. Repeat / reputation.
How I Work
I do not go by other peoples' deadlines.
"Boundary Walker" (Tim Ferriss on Dr. Mark Plotkin) - the rainbow bridge holder. To be the boundary, is to create and maintain a multidimensional center. Multidimensional in the sense that you do not control what happens there, but it is the axis of more vectors you can ever imagine or control! And in that inersection, is truth. only at that intersection.
I do not make promises if I am not 100% dedicated to sticking to them.
I do not work under oversight. I work on trust.
I do not sell my time for money. I work on a value-exchange basis.
I do not let meetings run overtime, when they have gone into entropy.
I do not compromise on my health, my relationships, my personal space, because of "an opportunity." Nothing is worth compromising on what I need, to show up as myself.
I do not leave things to be assumed.
I provide my terms up front.
No compromise on alignment, because chronic friction causes long-term damage.
Do not expect immediate reciprocity—give space and time for real (healing) work to transpire.
Real love will devastate you.
“I was slowly learning that love did not mean holding on, which I had always thought, but rather letting go.”― Ken Wilber, Grace and Grit: Spirituality and Healing in the Life and Death of Treya Killam Wilber